Friday, May 23, 2008

I Desire- Natalie Grant

Here in this world that you've designed
From the rolling plains to the oceans
Deep and wide
Where are the words that can say what's In my heart
All that I am is amazed by who you are
[Chorus:]
The one thing I desire
Is just to know you more
To live a life that moves and breathes
And loves to bring you joy
So fill me with a fire
That burns away my doubts and all my fears
Into a place where you are all I hear
It's the one thing I desire
To do what you require
Is the one thing I desire
To love when I'd rather turn away
To give when I'm more resigned to take
To reach out a hand to someone who Feels alone
The way you reached for me
When there seemed to be no hope
[Repeat Chorus]
I'll live my life serving Christ
Offering a sacrifice of praise
[Repeat Chorus]

I wish you were here- Incubus

I dig my toes into the sand
The ocean looks like a thousand diamonds
Strewn across a blue blanket
I lean against the wind
Pretend that I am weightless
And in this moment I am happy...happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here

I lay my head onto the sand
The sky resembles a backlit canopy
With holes punched in it
I'm counting UFOs
I signal them with my lighter
And in this moment I am happy...happy

I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here

The world's a roller coaster
And I am not strapped in
Maybe I should hold with care
But my hands are busy in the air saying:

I wish you were here
I wish you were
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
I wish you were here
Wish you were here...

Tuesday, April 29, 2008

Narrative 3


I hate how my brother Jakie has to take my mommy’s attention away from me all the time. She pays to much attention to him when all her attention should be on me. I’m the better child. Jakie’s a mean, bully and he doesn’t deserve my mommy’s love. My mommy should just love me and forget about Jakie. I’m sick of sharing her love because it’s not fair to me. It makes me really sad and I don’t like that feeling. Even though I’m in my beautiful, white princess dress that mommy picked out for me she still won’t pay attention to me. She keeps saying how handsome Jakie looks, but doesn’t even look at me. She always says Jakie needs more attention than you because he’s special. Well maybe I want to be called special. Nobody ever thinks about what I want or need. I feel like throwing a temper tantrum, but mommy gets mad at me when I throw temper tantrums. If I throw one she might get mad and not talk to me. I feel tears rolling down my cheeks because I just want my mommy to love me. I see mommy kissing and hugging Jakie and I hope that she does the same to me, but she never does. She seems to love Jakie more, but I don’t know why because he’s always mean to me. She never yells at him for anything, but she’s always yelling at me. He’s such a little suck up and I’m sick of my mommy falling for it. Even if I’m a good girl she ignores me, but if Jakie’s a bad boy she just pretends like she can’t see him. No matter what I do mommy’s always going to view Jakie as special and love him more. I just wish for once she could show me that she loves me so I’m not so sad anymore. I just wish Jakie would go away forever.

Friday, April 18, 2008

Narrative 2


Everyday I stand here watching their passionate, loving relationship develop and everyday I wish for something terrible to happen to Elizabeth. This desire is turning me into a horrible, miserable person. I can’t help but long for Johns love and I can’t bear seeing them together anymore. These emotions are taking over my good judgment and all I can think about is getting rid of Elizabeth, so I can finally have John to myself. I’m sick of feeling worthless and I just want him to notice me. I go to bed at night dreaming of him holding me in his arms with his warm tender touch and sometimes I even dream about how I want Elizabeth to die a miserable long death. I wish the way he looked at her was the way he looked at me and I wish her happiness was my happiness. She has beautiful, luxurious, elegant clothing and I have to wear raggedy, old second hand clothing. I’m just the slave who cleans and serves food to him and he will never see me as anything more. At the end of everyday I wish that one day I will take her place and experience the passionate love I have always longed for. One day soon I will no longer have to wish and their will be no more Elizabeth. I will have committed the ultimate sin but I will gain what I have always wanted.



The Italian artist Pino Dangelico painted the painting “Desire”. Pino used the figures of the attractive female involved in his adolescent years in his paintings which are what make them so appealing to Europeans and Americans today. Pino’s unique style in illustration not only dominated the market but influenced other artists’ work. Pino chose to leave illustration behind and began dominating in fine art with his new figural concepts and amazing brush work which are displayed in his painting “Desire”.
The focal point in the image is the woman. The woman is highlighted because of the lighting in the painting which creates emphasis on the woman. There is value in the background and in the woman. The way the lighting hits the woman creates value on her back. The shape of the woman is very distinguished because she is showing now movement and the background is simple. The background contains a lot of different shades and the color is very dreary and depressing which lead you to believe the woman in the painting is unhappy. The woman is beautiful and her essence of innocence is visually appealing. The texture of the painting is very rough because of the very noticeable brush strokes which make the gradation look unfinished.
The image shows that the woman desires to be loved. She is struggling with her misery and longing for a relationship. She is very lonely and waiting for a companion to save her from her loneliness. Her desire for love is preventing her from experiencing the life she would like to live, which is a life of companionship and affection.

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

Narrative 1




I sat on my husband’s favorite hideous tattered looking couch, in which he cherished, sobbing while mourning his death. I previously hated this couch but now I waste one long lonely miserable day after another laying on it asking myself why he had to die so young. I sit here hugging the pillow he once used hoping if I hug hard enough that the pillow will eventually turn into him and I will wake up from this nightmare.
I picture him sitting peacefully on this couch reading the morning newspaper and drinking his coffee so appreciatively. I can still smell his manly pungent cologne on the pillow and I begin to weep relentlessly. The smell reminds me of when he previously held me tightly in his arms. I spotted the coffee stain he made on the couch the day before he passed away that he was so certain he was going to get out. I admire the unfinished unattractive wall paint that he had planned to finish years ago, but never got to. With the aroma of smoke in the air I pictured myself smelling the frayed out of date jacket he used to wear that reeked of cigarettes. I sit here searching for anything to remind me of him.
I spend my days longing for just one more moment with him or even to talk to him again. I lay her wondering if I could have done anything differently to prevent his death. There is not a minute out of any day that I don’t think about him. I often find myself contemplating whether or not I want to live without him. I have finished contemplating and today Is the day I reunite with my one true love.
The oil painting “Two Paths” was painted by the artist Brett X. Gamache. It was painted in Italy as a wedding gift for Mr. Keefor.
All through the painting the composition of the piece is rough and uneven. The painting looks as if it is unfinished. Throughout the painting the texture of the painting is uneven and bumpy because of the thick brush strokes. Also, the color is earthy and cool tones. The tone is rich with browns and warm colors. The focal point of the painting is the shed but the form of the shed can not be distinguished because there is not a distinct shape to it. At the top of the road the shading is darker than the rest of the painting and has a lot of black in it unlike the rest of the painting. The path is subtle but it is the emphasis of the painting. In the painting the path is diminutive but the shack is large, which means the painting is not proportionate. The gradation looks incomplete because the painting is imperfect and missing strong detail. There is an allusion to the Robert Frost poem “The Road Not Taken” because of the two paths.
The painting is about somebody choosing between two different lives. The paths represent the two lives that can be chosen. It represents parting from one life and beginning a new life. The dark shaded road is the old less adventurous road and the smaller path leading to the woods represents uncertainty and promises a new journey. The unpaved road leading to the woods represents a road that is traveled less frequently because it is uncommonly used but it can be the chance to experience a more exciting fulfilling life.

Monday, April 14, 2008

Dante Rossetti's Beata Beatrix- Narrative


Dante Rossetti’s painting Beata Beatrix had a huge influence on the European symbolism movement. This painting was developed because an event that occurred in his private life, his wife’s death. The painting is supposed to represent his deceased wife Elizabeth Siddal. Rossetti became increasingly depressed after losing his wife and idealized Elizabeth as Dante’s Beatrice in many paintings including Beata Beatrix.
The painting contrasts both good and bad by the two images in the back. The darker shaded object represents bad and the object with less value represents the good. The flower is highlighted to emphasize the importance of it and the dove. [Also, the middle of the background is highlighted to show the woman, the focal point in the painting, is good.] The colors in the painting are very dreary, which gives the viewer the illusion that the painting isn’t meant to be joyful.
The image shows the woman in the photo is choosing between good and bad. The woman desires to be good but struggles with if she truly deserves to be good. The woman looks as if she gave up all control because her face is so relaxed and she is leaving it up to a higher spirit to decide her fate. The flower being given to her by the dove represents peace and that the higher spirit decided to allow her to be good.

Community Project

My community project is going to be asking people what they desire and what they are willing to do to get what they wish for. I am going to prove that desire is very positive because it motivates people but also it is very negative because it overpowers people's ability to make good, responsible decisions. I want to help the community understand there is a healthy desire and and unhealthy desire.

Declaration

Desire is to wish or long for something. Many people wish for things they don’t have even if they don’t realize they are doing it. I chose desire because everyone desire’s something and everyone can relate to this concept. Desire happens on an everyday basis. People can desire several different things, which is why desire is such an extensive topic. People can relate to other people’s desires because they have desires themselves. Desiring something can be very positive but also can be very negative. For example, desire is positive because it motivates people to reach their goals, but it is negative because it is overpowering. It can overpower your ability to make good decisions and to use your common sense. Another reason why desire is negative is because people sometimes desire the wrong things. It can ultimately hurt you in the long run. Once you get what you once wished for you are still unsatisfied and you demand a greater wish. This is why I chose the topic desire because I wanted to show the many different things people can desire and how desire is overpowering people’s ability to live normal lives. For example, actresses on television are so skinny which makes normal everyday woman go on crazy extreme diets and develop eating disorders all because they desire to be like the movie stars. Desire is often described as passion because passion originally meant suffering. Desire is all about suffering because you suffer until you fulfill your desire and you suffer after you get what you desired for because you desire something else. Desire is like an ongoing addiction because it’s never ending and once you start desiring things you never stop. I wanted to show that sometimes desiring something isn’t always good and most people take desire to an unhealthy level. This concept interests me because everyone including myself is always somehow unsatisfied and never happy with their appearance, relationships, materialistic items and life in general.

Paradox Poem

Looking back on my life there were a lot of good times but a lot of bad times.
I’ve learned a lot yet I haven’t really learned anything at all.
In life a social life means everything except it actually means nothing and good grades are necessary but somehow are not required.
I have been taught that peace can’t be achieved without war and you cant love without hate.
Money means a lot to me but also means absolutely nothing.
I’m outgoing but I’m shy and I love talking but I enjoy silence.
I believe I’m responsible but I make a lot of bad decisions.
I’m immature but I can be mature.
I live without regrets but I wish I could take back a lot of things from my past.
My ultimate goal in life is to make the impossible true.
I have changed but I have also stayed the same.
The past seventeen years have been the worst years of my life but also the best.

Monday, February 4, 2008

Desire

At first i was stuck between courage and desire. I decided to do desire because everyone is always wanting more than what they already have. Also, I chose desire because desire seems more interesting to me.